I decided to start another blog that is more "what I think in a day" and less "livejournal".
Most of my livejournal friends will not know about this blog, and I'm going to try to keep it that way.
Lets see... first blog post...
I'm home sick from work again today. My house is a disaster at current time because I got married this last weekend, and the wedding bomb is still at work in my house. The weather is grey and moist, sprinkling, foggy, generally humid without heat all day long. I made breakfast for myself and my husband, put away some more of our gifts, and posted wedding pictures to our photobucket site most of the day.
I also ate cupcakes.
I want to start making more time for crafting again. My first order of business is to get my sewing machine looked at and repaired so I can start my supersecret plan. No, I can't tell you or it wouldn't be supersecret.
We had some friends over last night for Costco chinese. I know this sounds gross, but it actually was really tasty, potstickers and eggrolls and sticky rice from Costco that Kaisa and I whipped up and we all 4 ate off our new bright dishes. Kaisa and I drank wine and Jacob went to work on some of the mountain of beer left over from our reception, while they gave us marriage tips and we grinned at each other over soy sauce.
I never thought I would be this in love with anyone again. I really never thought it would be John, if I ever was. Getting to where we are was rocky and full of unknowns. We fought for our friendship to survive at one point, not even working for a romantic relationship outside of that struggle. He despaired of ever getting me to think of him in that way again. I pushed him away as hard as I could, almost to the point of cruelty.
I can't imagine that now, I can't remember what that time felt like, and it wasn't so long ago. He came home on his lunch break a few minutes ago just to wrap me up in a big bear hug and cuddle our cat on our bed. He gently told me earlier not to worry about the mess, to take some time and feel better, take a bath, soak, watch some Star Trek Next Generation because we still haven't cracked the first season I bought a few weeks ago. (Also because I'm not allowed to finish West Wing without him.)
I have a certainty in my heart that marrying him was the best thing I could have done, and a warm fluttery feeling knowing he's coming home to me again in a few hours.
Who knew this is what love was supposed to feel like? I sure as hell didn't.
This last weekend was so amazing, it was everything I had hoped for and beyond it. My two best friends were with me the whole time, jumping to the rescue to fix whatever needed fixing and sharing each laugh with me. Having them there with me, having their love and support.. I think it was honestly the happiest time of my life, and I'm not just talking about in recent memory, I mean I can't remember being happier.
That is really rare for most people, especially for me.
I am really blessed with wonderful wonderful friends.
Okay. I'm going to make a grilled cheese sandwich and watch Captain Picard.
Hasta, peanuts.
2 comments:
I had so much fun too!! I wish I only could have had more wine because that would have been waaay sillier and waaaay more fun. :)
I'm glad I know you, too!!
Well, we'll have to just PLAN it on a night when you don't have class early and Jacob will DRIVE or we'll come to YOUR house and we will be silly together. Kay?
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